It’s almost Friday and I honestly could not be more thankful. The last few weeks have been incredibly stressful and as you are all aware of, I try to be completely open and honest about the struggles I go through with my mental and physical health, so here it goes…
I’ve hit a bit of a rut lately, where I’m feeling incredibly low about my self esteem and have been extremely hard on myself. I’m unhappy with my physical appearance and have been struggling to lose weight, no matter what I am doing. I’m upset with myself, because I haven’t been putting much effort into my hair or makeup. It’s ironic that I am running a health and beauty blog, but barely do makeup. I’m so exhausted from my commute to and from work, that I don’t have the energy to put on any makeup during the week and usually throw my hair up into a messy bun. Needless to say, I am highly disappointed in myself lately. My skin has gone back to absolute shit, my eyebrows need to be done, my hair is fading, and none of my clothes fit me.
The truth of the matter is that these things happen. I can feel on top of the world and then randomly I feel like shit and can’t get my head out of negative thoughts, especially about myself. I get extremely discouraged when it comes to fashion, hair, and makeup when I have a specific look or goal and I can’t accomplish that. I’ve been considering taking makeup classes to improve my comfortability with makeup though, in hopes that I can focus positive energy into something I’m passionate about.
I’ve been trying to stay positive these days, but it’s difficult. This isn’t news to anyone. We all experience these troubles from time to time. I wish I had more time to do things that I enjoy. I feel like I have so many things planned out for my future and for the future of this blog and I haven’t been able to commit to it as much lately. For that, I apologize.
Fortunately enough, I’ve been able to accomplish small goals for myself with this blog, which has been an absolute blessing. I’m happy that the people around me have taken an interest in the things I am posting and are supporting the Look Book each week. I really strive to support fellow makeup artists and enthusiasts by reposting your looks to establish a relationship and expand both of our audiences. As mentioned before, I also try to be very open and transparent about my mental/physical health through this blog, in hopes that it inspires others to talk and reach out to me or amongst yourselves. Some days can be really bad, but some days can be really awesome and I believe it is important to remember that. I try every day to remember the positive things happening in my life and I encourage you to do the same.
With that being said, I have some really exciting things I am working on right now and I hope you’ll continue to support my growth here on The Blair Bitch. I’m working alongside some pretty rad companies, which I will be posting about in the next couple of weeks, as well as planning some mini giveaways for you all! (YAY FREE STUFF!!!)